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sketch of Reshka and Aquilan havin a drink and making fun of people i guess lol.

Couple sketches.

Disco Inferno - Bee Gees

I decided just now that my tumblr needs some bee gees, whether anyone likes it or not. Can you dig it?

I wish I felt like finishing this hurr >_> Oh well, points for trying. Back to traditional.

Goodnight, sweet prince.

Show Me Your JennIttles: So today I got up and got ready and went to head out for class, but I... →

jennittles:

So today I got up and got ready and went to head out for class, but I got halfway there and felt like I was about to break down and cry. And I don’t know why. So I turned back and got coffee and sat in the cafe for a while before coming back to the room.

I think I might be developing depression….

I wasn’t going to reblog this, and I wasn’t going to say anything. It’s hard for me to come to terms with my own depression sometimes, and I generally don’t talk about it. But, here I go. I’d be lying if I said I knew exactly how you felt and exactly how to deal with the situation. The truth is, people deal with depression differently. For me, at my worst, I used to write everything down and tell myself to just sleep. In the morning everything would be fine. Regardless if it was or not, it kept me from prolonged sad thoughts, and sometimes that’s all that matters. I’ve been often told to seek medical attention because I get rather suicidal. I’ve been told to get medication and therapy and help. I don’t do it because I don’t trust therapists and I don’t like pills. I had a roommate who went on anti-depressants and it made her worse. I’m not saying this to discourage you, there are plenty of people who have found great help with these things. As I said, people deal with depression differently. Talking things out with a school guidance counselor once a week would be a good start, I think. Your college should have one, and they’re easy to talk to. Sometimes just getting it all off your chest is the best medicine, I find.

Just remember, the human brain is a powerful thing. Mind over matter, as they say. Thinking that the day sucks is perfectly fine, and logical, because hey. Maybe it does suck! Thinking life sucks is fine too, because hey, maybe at that moment life really does suck. As long as you know it will get better, and things will look up, it’ll be fine. It really will. I’ve stood before many train tracks and seen the trains speeding by, and god I’ve come so close to just jumping. But I always remember at the last second all the things I haven’t done and all the people I have fun with, and it stops me. Sometimes I regret it, but not for long. 

This is sort of long winded isn’t it? Well, even if this doesn’t help or provide any comfort (I’m quite bad at helping, but I just couldn’t get your post off my mind) just know that there are plenty of people willing to listen. I’m one, and I’m fairly certain your friends will willingly lend an ear. I mean, now that I look at it, taking advice from a suicidal anon on the interwebs just sounds silly! Ha! But, what can I say? Having a sense of humor helps too. 

Talk to your college’s guidance counselor, it’s free, and they’re there to listen. Ask them if medication is worth it, weigh your options. Trying it out is worth it in the long run, it may help. If it doesn’t, well, at least you can say you’ve tried and that’s more than I’ve ever done. Chin up, though. Today may be crappy (hell, it’s raining here,) but tomorrow is another day.

of course, I’m the only one who doesn’t like wolves.

Ah, pencil, I never tire of you.